Tiffany Rambles

I've already used the picture to the right, but bleh; it's a good description of what my room is becoming, and what it will definitely become if Triple R: Read, Rate, Review is a success when I launch it.

The site is for what the title says its for. I, as a book reviewer and interviewer, will be creating Triple R to help aspiring writers and published authors get seen. It will have a featured content box for interviews and book trailers, among many other things.

I don't know when I'll be launching Triple R or if I want to announce my new novel site at the same time or wait until my novel has been signed on for publication. I'm hoping after Christmas, once I can get my novel package for Rhemalda finalized and submitted. The site is taking alot more work than I figured. Website coding isn't much fun, definitely when you're a semiperfectionist. >.<

Though there are quite a few general writing things I've finished and will be putting in effect soon (new website! I'll talk about that in Tuesday's blog), I happen to be equally excited about the progress of Savior of the Damned. By December 31st, as a Christmas present to both myself and the novel, I plan on submitting to Rhemalda Publishing. Rhemalda is a fairly new publishing house. The first three writers to be published are J.S. Chancellor, Walter Rhein, and J. Marie Croft. Now there is a growing staff of writers, and I would really like to be a part of this staff. Everything I've heard about the publishing house - the staff, the creator, the writers - screams of what I'd want in a publishing house.

The lovely picture to the left belongs to Suspense Magazine. You should really check it out!

If I've befriended you on Facebook, you already know that I've finished my play. I've put up about three stats about it, all phrased differently but saying the same thing. I've also already blogged about it.

After this, my general writing focus will go back to scholarships. I got into IUB! Now I have to worry about paying for it. :(

Anyway, back to the play. It's about an overachieving perfectionist who doesn't question anything about her life until a runaway named Wyatt asks her to. It's 20 pages on paper, so it'll be about 17-18 pages when I type it up. I'm thinking about calling it "Bottle Empty," Since Wyatt compares her to an empty bottle just waiting to be filled up.

Yes, the play takes a lot from my life. At one point, I faced that problem myself. There was this feeling that I did everything for others and very little for myself. It's not to the extreme that Christine's symptoms are, but I always exaggerate or understate issues in my writing, definitely if said issues pertain/once pertained/will pertain to me.

So, that's all! See you thursday, if I still have internet access.

Of course, I am sick again. This is due to the weather changes and frustrations. Not that that's important to this blog post at all, but I thought I'd mention it, since an odd part of me thinks you wanna know about how I can't get my nose to stop running. >.<

Usually, on Tuesdays, I don't have anything in particular to blog about because I've been focused more on SotD (which is going along VERY well) than on any writing projects outside of it. I actually do have something now.

Surprise, surprise! I'm entering into a playwriting contest.

In the 8th grade, I attempted to write a small script. I vaguely remember abandoning the idea a quarter of the way through. So, with that in mind, I don't know why I jumped to compete in a creative form I know so little about. Sure, my best friend is an actress, and I talk to the actors in the APA (Academy of Performing Arts), and I've had theatre class. Still, I never paid attention to the actual play format. Yesterday, I did some research on the format. Today I started writing the play.

If I hadn't spent two hours on a fifty question homework assignment, I could have finished scene 1 at least.

The play doesn't have a name yet. I'm thinking about calling it Wanderer, though. The story is about Christine, a perfectionist who lives her life solely the way society wants her to, and a homeless wanderer named Wyatt who wants her to understand just how much of an empty shell she really is.

This is a stark contrast to the novel I've been writing for five years, where Alecia (the FMC) is an ex-junkie prostitute who needs to cope with being framed as a serial killer and her title as the powerful Savior of the Damned.

Wish me luck! :D

If the picture and the title of the blog isn't obvious, today I feel accomplished. Now, I know it's too soon to be saying that, and I'll probably be eating my words in a couple of days (or minutes), but I do feel accomplished.

These last couple of days have been pretty frustrating. My internet got cut off, and most of my plans also got cut off. For the first time, I haven't blogged both tuesday and thursday. However, that also resulted in me getting a lot of writing done. I not only finished Chapter 36: Officer Clayton, but I added more to my Mind Realm concept. By Mid December or the beginning of January, my novel should definitely be ready for agents and publishers!

Then I received two very great e-mails, one from the Suspense Magazine editor about the December issue, which will have the critique of my story by the wonderful Starr and some of my reviews; the other came from Dakota with the notification that I'll soon be recieving a free, signed copy of Sacrifice in the mail. I LOVE LOVE LOVE getting free, signed copies of books. J.S. Chancellor was the first to do so for me, and I intend to pay them both back dearly with reviews galore and word of mouth (this hints at an author program I'd really like to put in effect, but that's for another day...)

What put the topping on the cake was the e-mail from IUB telling me that I got in! Now, I know it's not safe to be too excited. They gave me the early e-mail before the letter, and the letter will really solidify it for me. But still! Now all I have to worry about is...the money.

Oh dear. I might as well be poor. >.<

Speaking of scenes, check out what Darcy Pattison is doing on Facebook for scenes this month! It's really helpful. I signed up to be a part of the event, though I don't think I'm quite following it right. I haven't put up a blog post daily about scenes -- I only update on Tuesdays and Thursdays -- and I certaintly haven't written an entirely new scene every day. However, I have been keeping up with the event page, as well as diligently working on my new 36th chapter for SotD.

I don't know the specifics of what makes a scene, but I do know for sure that each chapter is made up of scenes. Since I am now in the midst of having Alecia, my FMC, hide from the cops that are chasing her, I do at least feel like I'm participating somewhat. I've been working on the chapter for three days. The first two days I had to get the writing bug back, but now the paragraphs are pouring out fairly well.

Aside from writing that chapter, I've also been listing elements I'll have to flesh out and research. Five edits in and I still need to better develop my concepts: Character Sub-Plot Chart, Capitalized Terms, Romance and Death Chart, Archfiend Exploration, and Location Maps.

Oh, the fun! (I say this both sarcastically and literally).

<<< Mind you, I am not familiar with this magazine. I'll check it out some other time. There are at least 15 authors I know of who were published when they were 19 or younger, and that brings up the question that has been haunting me ever since I started seriously writing in the 8th grade: Can I get published before I'm 19? Am I skilled enough, devoted enough, to be published before I graduate high school? I have a LOT of thoughts on this whole being published as a teen thing. I'm not exactly sure how to organize my thoughts for this blog post, so I'll list my thoughts as they reoccur to me.

• Age is not important. Yes, I know my age shouldn't be of value when it comes to writing. Writing =/= age. Still, it's always been a goal I've promised myself, and I've broken SO many promises to myself...I figure that's mainly why I'm holding on to this. Yes, I've been rewriting and researching and revamping SotD for five years, but does that mean anything? J.K. Rowling spent five years just developing Harry Potter. Tolkien spent about 30 or more years working on LotR.
• Just because THOSE authors were published young, they're not exactly quality. And just because some authors were published well into adulthood, they're not exactly quality. Age and experience CAN play a large part in skill, but there's always exceptions. Plus, I shouldn't be concerned about what others are doing. Writing is pretty competitive, but I'm now at a stage where I need to worry about me and the story itself.
• I shouldn't stress myself out about it. I want my story to be the best I can get it, and I shouldn't compromise that for something as trivial as my age. Plus, I think it's hindering the progress of my novel.

I don't feel particularly special. I don't feel any better than anyone else around me, which sobers me as much as it makes me sad. Selfishly, I DO want to feel special, like I'm the exception for someone, though it's rather whiny of me. But quality is more important than that.
Still...do you think I could pull it off? Do you think I could publish this before I graduate?

I seriously almost forgot that I had to blog today. I sat at my computer for five minutes after watching a particularly intense episode of Monster and thought to myself, "Wow; I'm bored. Aren't I supposed to be doing something important today...OH YEAH!"

I have been making wonderful improvements to Savior of the Damned. At first I had a hard time planning out my newest chapter, Officer Clayton. I knew nothing about cops and paramedics, and my first draft chapter summary consisted of vague sentences like, "She ripped the cord thingy out of her arm." So I asked for help, and my friend Maria and author friend Breanna came to the rescue. Maria's paramedic stepdad answered my questions the same day I sent them to Maria. I still await the assistance of Breanne's cop husband, but I can write the chapter and add his input later.

Another reason why I have been motivated to make wonderful improvements is Caleb Jennings. I've been spending a very innovative couple of days at his site. Below I list the things that I participated in:

• Writing Place contest: This probably should have gone in tuesday's blog post, but it didn't cross my mind. I am Entry 2. Though I didn't win, I still got a good number of votes. My writing isn't so bad!
• Vlog: Caleb posted a video blog about me and my entry. He did a good amount of talking about dark stories, and he said some very interesting stuff.
• Interview and Excerpt: This was, by far, the absolute best and scariest part of being featured on Caleb's site. Caleb posted an interview with me, a 300 word excerpt of my choosing, and a reading of the excerpt. The members of the site also had the opportunity to state their opinions on my entry. The discussion that went on down there in the comments, about voice and dialogue tags and description especially, was very enlightening!
• Audio Edit: I really loved what he had to say, namely because he didn't feel the need to edit alot. lol.

And that's all for today!

I blog every Tuesday and Thursday. On Tuesdays, I focus on what I'm writing in general. On Thursdays, I focus on my novel in particular. In a previous post, I said that I would spend the two months that my novel is in the hands of critiquers working on a creative writing portfolio. Well, I abandoned that plan about a week ago.

These are the reasons I've been giving myself for the change of plans: 1.) I will be taking creative writing courses in college. I can build a portfolio there, or at least focus on building one on campus. 2.) My novel has a lot of stuff going on, so it would be smart to do some more research and writing.

However, I most likely gave up on this whole creative writing portfolio thing because I get home from the APA at five o' clock, and that only adds to my apparently growing laziness. People think I'm doing a lot this year, but this is NOTHING compared to how I lived my life freshman and sophomore year. In other words, the first creative writing course gave me a personal essay to write. I had no problems taking notes, but when I had to write the essay, I totally bombed it. I'm already doing scholarship essays. And so I realized that, if I was gonna waste my time not doing the creative writing portfolio work, I can use that time working on my novel -- something I always feel the need to work on.

Because I'm back in total Savior of the Damned mode, my Tuesday posts will no longer talk about what I'm generally doing in the writing world (unless I mention a review I've turned into Suspsense Mag or I actually write a freaking short story. lol). Instead, they will talk about the things in the writing world that have grabbed my attention, like MFA's and Self Publishing and Kindles. Mind you, these posts will probably be link heavy and opinionated, but that's nothing new!

Today's post was just an explanation post, though. I'm gonna get some shut eye. I'm not liking that this whole feeling unwell thing is becoming a habit. Reminds me of depression. :(

I'm sick today, so I probably shoudn't be online blogging. Still, I'd hate to NOT blog on the days that I set to blog - tuesday and thursday. My stomach may be killing me, but if I wasn't blogging right now, I'd just be working on my novel.

And that's today's blog post: what I'm doing with my novel, now that it's finished and in the hands of five readers/critiquers.

Well, it turns out that it's not really finished, but I've said that before. My critiquers would be amused to learn that the draft I sent them, the draft that I thought needed no more massive rewriting (I count massive rewriting as adding more scenes to a chapter or adding a new chapter or deleting a chapter altogether), had actually been undergoing massive rewriting for the past two days. Here's why:

Sub-plots: I'm developing a little more on three sub-plots that originally didn't get enough attention in the first two drafts: The cops, angels, and Samuel's minions. Samuel's minions and the angels were handled without too much rewriting. I just had to explain some stuff in already created chapters. However, because of the cops, I now have to write another chapter called Officer Clayton and explain some stuff in any chapter that mentions cops. I haven't written a new chapter in so long. I'm pretty excited.

Timeline: Back when I first started writing the second draft, I came up with a story timeline listing the dates from the first chapter up to the second book. However, back then, I had 41 chapters. Now I have 39, which means a great amount of the dates are off. That came to my attention when Alecia said, in Chapter 6: Haze, that it was a bright Friday morning. I went back to my notes and realized that, months ago, Chapter 6 was Chapter 9! I'm less excited about creating a new timeline than I am about writing a new, action packed chapter with cops.

In a previous post, I said that I would explain how I go about reviewing for Suspense Magazine. Well, I keep my word (even if it takes me ages to get back to the word that I kept). But, before that, I'd like to touch on the short story idea that's been brewing in my brain since last night two days ago.

Yes, the genre will be horror; no, I have not written anything down yet. lol. This stems from my fear of writing short stories.

The idea started because there is something odd and dark above my window, and I hadn't noticed it until two days ago. I started to ask myself all types of questions: What is it, exactly? Why did it start above my window? What if the dark stuff started claiming the room until it claimed the whole room? What if only I could see the dark stuff growing?

When I have the time, or whenever I make the time, I have a wonderful premise and vague set of plans. However, I've also accomplished making myself terrified of this room. Of course, the dark stuff hasn't grown, but I also can't get it off, and my eye always finds it. I still don't know what it is!

Now, about my process of reviewing for Suspense Mag. I have a big box of books that the editor has chosen, based on my preferences, to read and review. So far, I've reviewed about 5 books. Within the first 20 pages of a novel, no matter how big the novel is, I already have the whole review planned out and mostly written. When I actually finish the book, all I have to do is go back to the review and add in some stuff here and there.

How?

First off, a Suspense Magazine review is NOTHING like a Wall Street Journal review. Suspense Mag publishes reviews of a lot of books each issue (as well as movies). Because of that, the reviews are asked to be 3-4 paragraphs. There is not a set formulaic format, but this is the set formulaic format I follow:

1st paragraph: Always come up with a hook. Often, the hook corresponds directly to the story's start, but not always. As long as it's catchy and relevant, I use it.

2nd paragraph: Summarize the beginning of the book until it gets to the Big Question of the novel, which will undoubtedly show up within the first 20 pages. Don't say much past the Big Question. I want to make the readers excited to know what's next -- not spoil the plot.

3rd paragraph: I give my opinion of the story as a whole. I try to keep it nice. Even if I don't like the story, I keep two things in mind: 1.) Someone else is prone to like it; 2.) I don't want authors to hate me. lol. Generally, if there's something I don't like and can't get over, I just nicely mention it.

4th: Bring the Big Question back again, usually as a standalone sentence. Or bring forth something good or unique about the novel (The examples are actually from my reviews). Can you keep up with the God of Clocks?/ Now it's up to Madison. Can she help the real vampires stop the wannabees?/ This tale is as much about loss as it is about Mo and Andrea, his wife, reminding Frank that there is as much to look forward to as there is to look back at./ In a time where vampire books are all over the place, Wolf's Cross is not only a refreshing break, but an intriguing view of the werewolves' world.

Even though I can finish most of a review early on in the story, I ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS finish the novel and really take it in. I feel it would be disrespectful to the author and Suspense Mag if I didn't.

Well, this blog post is already too long. Thanks for reading!

Before I get into the creatures in Savior of the Damned, I'd like to talk about WHY I am relatively happy right now.

Look to the right! (Have you looked to the right yet? That was a demand, lovely reader you). Apart from the fact that I changed some stuff around, I now have followers! Yes; there are people reading my blog. They may not always comment, but I at least don't feel as much like I'm talking to myself. This is going a lot better than my first attempt at blogging ages ago.

THANK YOU FOR READING THIS! I appreciate it. :D

My readers/editors: Now, this is making me more antsy than relatively happy. As I mentioned in a previous post, SotD is in the hands of five critiquers until the first week of December, where I will take the book back, edit accordingly, and finally start sending the books to agents. However, I've only gotten word back from one reviewer, a good friend of mine, and the others haven't said anything. :( That leads me to believe that, though I tried to choose carefully, none of them are as interested as they initially seemed to be. Are they just busy, or is my novel not good enough to hold the attention of at least five people?

Updates: In due time, perhaps tomorrow, I will be updating the SotD site. Basically, I'll add a section that shows which tropes occur in the novel that I know of so far, as well as an info section that will show the number of words and pages as of this draft.

Now, what I wanted to talk about was the creatures in Savior of the Damned. In the first book, there are vampires, angels, demons, werewolves, corpse eaters, ghosts, and soul eaters (not to mention sirens and a three headed demon dog and a killer clown). Throughout the whole tale, I expect to add more, such as zombies and necromancers and witches and hunters.

Do you think that's too many creatures, even if weaved in according to the plot? (And it all makes sense. My main character is, after all, the Savior of the Damned). Or are you happy to see a story that realizes there is more to the supernatural world than vampires and werewolves?

Maybe it's because I'm a horror junkie, and I surround myself with horror, but these past few days have felt like a battle between my fears and my sanity. Not that there's anything wrong or unusual about that. I feel like fear is important to the human species. In my opinion, almost everything is a matter of balance.

Outside of writing, what keeps me running is money and relationships. I owe the library 45 dollars. I didn't have enough money to pay at first, but now I DEFINITELY don't have enough. I looked in my purse and found that I only had five dollars left. Either I blanked out and forgot where I put my money, or someone went in my purse and took it. I'm quite certain it was stolen, though. And my fears with relationships is a loooong story in itself, one that I don't think you will really care to hear about. In all, I feel romantically inept, and a little bit socially inept.

But this blog isn't about me, per se. It's about writing. Before I get into my fears with SotD, I'd like to highlight this beautiful trailer for Suspense Mag. One of these days, I hope to have an emotional and well done trailer like this for my novel:

I don't know how to make the video show here yet, so here is a link. Watch and enjoy!

People will hate it:

I know all about target audiences. I know that everyone will not like my work, no matter how good it is, because we all have different preferences. Still, my fear is that NO ONE will like it. My fear is that everyone will look upon it with disdain. They will think my writing style is undeveloped and crappy. They will laugh at my plot -- the very plot I have lovingly and thoroughly developed for five years. I know this fear is irrational. I put the first two drafts of SotD on Fictionpress, and it was recieved very well by some people. Still, the fear persists.

My family won't support it:

I don't want to make a big deal out of writing something my whole family will enjoy for the same reason why I don't make a big deal out of everyone in the world liking my story. It can't be done. I'm just afraid that my family will...shun me for some of the content. SotD can be pretty dark, explicit, and gothic at times. There are quite a few religious people in my family who I know, for sure, will look down on it. My family loves me, and I love them, but I've always wondered: How do author's cope when family doesn't accept their stuff?

It won't sell:

Yes, I write because it is a passion. Yes, I write because I feel as though it is the one thing I do the best, the one thing I can never stop doing. I know that a writer should never look at the profession as a means of putting food on the table, definitely in the beginning stages. But writers get published to be read, and what's the point of getting published if no one reads or buys your stuff? This also ties in to the fear that the supernatural genre will die out before I get published. (I talk about that here.).

I think my fears are very normal for an aspiring writer, definitely for an aspiring hormonally-confused-teenage-female writer. Don't get me wrong. I have faith in my writing. I honestly have more confidence that I can become better at writing than I have in any other aspect of my life. I'm not confident that I can become smarter, prettier, more well known, but I AM confident that I can improve my writing.

What are some of your fears, both with writing and outside of it?

Wow. 9:15 on a weekday is pretty late for me to be blogging, but that's because my day got unorganized when I went to the library to print out my 250 page novel, clicked print twice by mistake, and ended up owing the public library $45 I can't give back any time soon. Not only don't I have a tangible copy of the novel to give to my best friend to edit, but I am also experiencing debt for the first time.

I don't like it. lol.

Today's blog won't really have an overall topic. Instead, I'm just gonna list the things I am and am not accomplishing. I like the idea that my life is a series of checklists. Whenever I mentally or phsyically check a goal off of my long list, I feel a little better on the inside.

Caleb's Teen Writer Site: Caleb is an author who also devotes his precious time to "Refining Teen Writers and Readers Into Rock Stars." I was very excited the first time I found out about this on Facebook. A couple of minutes ago, I sent an interview and a 254 word snippet of my story to him. I hope it is recieved well! Whenever I can find enough time to stop and chill, I'll post all over his site. I'm 18. I'll only be a teen for so long, so I need to take advantange of such wonderful opportunities while I still can.

Suspense Mag: On October 3rd, I submitted my review of "Murder in Vein" by Sue Ann Jaffarian to the editor. It was an amazingly good book. I finished it within 6 hours, which is record time for someone as busy and time locked as me. Next I'll be reviewing "The Law of Nines" by Terry Goodkind when I finish reading this book by Ron Suskind (That's not a Suspense Mag book). So far, I've reviewed four books. I have five more to go before I'm finished with this box. Reviewing is pretty formulaic and fun! I'll blog about it one of these days.

Creative Writing Class: For my first free online creative writing course, I am taking lessons from The University of Utah's Introduction to Creative Writing. (To see the course assignments, you'll have to click 'Other User' and 'Login as Guest.'). Anyway, I wrote down notes from the Syllabus and...that's about it. lol. This I can NOT check off of my checklist. Because yesterday I needed a break, and today I got home two hours late, I didn't have enough time to do an assignment there. Definitely tomorrow, though.

Before I start talking about how horrible my relationship with short story writing is, let me give you some important links and info. Tiffany Rambles is a merge of my The Adolescent Writer blog and my Savior of the Damned blog. Basically, all of the content at those sites will be here and vice versa. However, it's much easier to subscribe to posts here. Plus, blog spot has better looking blogs than Weebly. Don't expect the content here and there to differ by a lot, if it differs at all.

To sum me up: I'm a young, aspiring writer and a weird workaholic ready to be discovered (somewhat). I have a novel site and an author site, as well as a general writing forum that I am running with Kiana, my co-admin and friend. I've been in and out of the writing world -- though not any published venues apart from Suspense Mag and my old high school's newspaper -- for at least five years. Now I'm finally here to stay.

Yayzers! Introductions are over with (at least on my part. I don't like introductions. I can only paint a biased image of myself. I'd like to know who YOU are, though. Remind me that I am not just talking to myself, though there's certainly nothing wrong with that. Do it all the time! Wonderful part of writing!).

Anyway, I went off on a tangent. I do that....

Namely, I'm a novelist. In the 8th grade, to broaden my horizons, I attempted to write a short story in every genre. I threw all of those horrible short stories in the back of my closet, where a box full of horrible novellas are rotting away, and turned to one story out of that Practice Package: Savior of the Damned. What started off as an idea that I didn't like when I first wrote it became the novel I am soon hoping to publish and have been writing/rewriting/editing for five years.

Those short stories were horrible for a number of reasons. First off, some of them lacked passion. I required myself to write in every genre, including ones I hated and knew nothing about. Secondly, I couldn't write for crap. (I just censored myself there. Hm. Who is my audience? Do you care if I curse now and then? Does it matter either way?) There were grammatical and sentence structure errors galore. But the biggest reason I tossed them was because none of them actually ENDED. Every short story was written like the first chapter of a novel.

And the reason my tough love with short stories is relevant now? I have just finished the third draft of my novel and am in the process of sending it out to five beta readers/editors. I will give them two months to tear my novel apart. In those two months, I plan on taking free online creative writing classes. Then, I want to have a short story collection consisting of material I can actually send to magazines.

Short stories are not my strong point, but I will be working diligently in the next two months to turn that around. Tough love is a challenge. I like it!